My blog is now read by four people who I know in real life.
I'm not sure how I feel about this.
I mean, I'm immensely grateful for the support, don't go away! But as you will know by now, I don't like telling people stuff. I believe it shows vulnerability. I don't know why, but it must have been something to do with when I was a child, but I don't like showing vulnerability or weakness to anyone. Musings was a way I could vent my (edited) thoughts. I have a written diary, but that is a depressing place (even though the cover features pastel colours!), and I usually use it when I'm in school. And of course I use Musings to talk about music, and people I aspire to, and to improve my writing, etc.
And now, I be (pirate grammar!) in a strange situation.
A girl I know recently deleted her blog, saying that she wasn't comfortable with saying personal stuff to strangers. I can understand that, but I'd rather have strangers knowing my secrets than the old man living next door. And that's just it - I don't know how I can share personal stuff with people I know through the Internet, when the information isn't exclusively for them, and then, the next time we meet, have them forget what they read. Of course, the obvious situation would be that I don't share my feelings, but I can't not do that! Then blogging would be no fun. I'm just going to carry on like normal, in the hopes that I will keep Auto-Editing myself. But then, even if Musings was only read by a person in Finland, I would keep Auto-Editing myself, because this is the Internet! So what was the point of this post?
Here's a point: new video going up later today, I think. Thank you so much for the feedback on my Harry Potter one! Eight comments is my new record! If you want me to explain something else with Post-It notes in three minutes, drop it in the comments!
And now, a picture: